http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php en-us http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2076 My main opportunity to buy groceries has long been on my way home from work in the morning. It requires not being so early the stores aren't open yet, or else going to Walmart where it's open 24 hours. It also requires having enough time on the other side to complete the mission. I've been running about $30-40 a week lately (a problem in the long run, since on what I have to assume for income my food budget is about $3/week), not counting any money Deb passes along for me to shop and... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2075 I started this post on the 24th to be sure it was ready the 25th, then got derailed. Except for a substantially identical first paragraph that is now the second paragraph, this is a new version. Seven years ago, February 25, 2003, at 12:57 AM - missed the 24th by that much - I made my first blog post (actually not the original location, but I replicated the post to my original non-BlogSpot blog and that is the link I can find easily), intentionally of no consequence just to get started.... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2074 If you don't want to catch me blogging feelings of an almost human nature. Just go. Don't read. Don't come back. This is, in large part, a place for personal blogging. It always was. If you are part of my life, or ever were, you may recognize yourself here. Or worse, not, which might should alarm you, but you don't have to read. I am not forcing you to. That is all. http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2073 A year ago this day I was dumped officially. Not unexpected, in that the roots of it went back four years and I knew it was an alternative I'd invited all along by passively awaiting change. Not preferred. Not something I expected such external influence on. Not unthreatened. Not even final, it turned out. That would come the next month. Most of all, not something I expected to spark from such a trivial, inane incident that wasn't even much of an incident. It's been a long year... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2072 Six years ago right now I was in the air, halfway across the country, making one of the biggest mistakes of my life, except for the caveat of my three awesome little consequences. I was a babe in the woods. She was not, and so I can't imagine what in the world she was thinking. Not to say I had no reservations, before or after meeting in person. I just dismissed my reservations too lightly, didn't believe age mattered, couldn't have imagined what hormones could do, and didn't grasp my... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2071 To blogger Rob Sama, who reminded me I'd intended to bring back the birthday tradition Real Soon Now. One place or another. http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2070 I should be in bed, since the alarm goes off at 2:10 AM, but I'd meant to write about the crazy dream I had last night just before I woke. Deb and I, and the kids, who were oddly not present or unobtrusive except in my thoughts, lived in a sprawling, elongated one story house that seemed to be half greenhouse/utility/work area and half house, and seemed to have dual kitchen areas. The place was not entirely unfamiliar as a variant on one of my standard dream settings. It had... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2069 And Aubrey was her name, a not so very ordinary girl or name... On the other hand, the only two Aubreys I have ever met have been men, so listen to Aubrey. http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2068 This is an awesome article. I can totally see it happening, and being the right approach more often than happens. Trouble is, with us, Deb would probably say the husband sounds like me, and I'd say the husband sounds like her. I think we'd be right. Then what? http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2067 You Are Confident You are self-assured and together. You have high self esteem. Other people see you as outgoing, hyper, and even a bit overwhelming. Your ideal romantic relationship is unconventional, wild, and very public. You do best in tasks that require you to be flexible, creative, and playful. The Shape Test http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2066 Your Inner Child Is Naughty Like a child, you tend to discount social rules. It's just too much fun to break the rules! You love trouble - and it seems that trouble loves you. And no matter what, you refuse to grow up! How Is Your Inner Child? http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2065 You Are a Haunted House You are a deeply complicated and sometimes deeply disturbed person. You can't help but be attracted to the dark side of life - even when it's pretty gruesome. In relationships, you are honest and real. So real that it's definitely a little scary. You don't fake it or play along just to get along. And people either respect this... or deeply resent it Your life is thoughtful, deep, and even philosophical at times. You see the world as it is. You... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2064 Your Gift is Imagination You are constantly dreaming. You are always thinking about what could be. You love to express yourself in many ways. You have a way with words and tell vivid stories. You love to be amused. You are good entertaining yourself, and other people find you hilarious. You're the type of person who finds staying happy easy. There's always fun to be had! What's Your Gift? http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2063 Want to post. Have some stuff. There is just so much! Have a link that made me think and that I talked of at counseling, relative to passivity and work and as applied to marriage. There is medical, though I usually would update that at Blogblivion. There is something slipping out of my head even as I type. Oh, boundaries! A book and concept recommended by the counselor, which I previewed slightly on Google and was struck by because anecdotal people right in the intro about... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2062 I may leave this one intact, use it for certain things, and start another as a similar yet differently focused one. Let this one revel in its age, maybe not even try to port it to WordPress, but if I do be prepared to revert if it doesn't work. I hate to be too mercenary, but really if I can build more of an empire where ads can go, supplementing my income, then yay. I'm kind of thinking to leave the Jay Solo identity behind, feeling like it's an artifact of a past that wasn't as real... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2061 You Are Highly Colorful You are intensely alive and very passionate. You are optimistic about the world and about people. You feel very connected to others, and you tend to be a harmonizing force. You are vibrant and receptive. You are ready for whatever the world has to offer you. The Watercolor Test http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2060 You Are Super Spiritual You are in touch with the world around you, and you find peace in connecting with others. You believe that every life is special and that every life has a purpose. You value harmony and understanding. You try not to judge, bicker, and fight. As simple as it sounds, you truly think it's important to make the world a better place. How Spiritual Are You? http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2059 Brave? Yes and no. I've read the linked article, which represents a wonderful way to make lemonade, and in one spot sounds like a spat between me and my departed. Well, okay, brave it may be, true confessions and all. The actions were pretty stupid, and so obviously wrong that, well, I can't believe so many people fell for the bubble and the forces behind it. After all, I've been writing about the obvious real estate bubble since 2003, and that without having an onerous student loan... http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2058 You Are Shampoo You are refreshing and cheerful. You don't hold on to a lot of baggage in life. You are a true optimist. For you, every day is a fresh start. You are confident and bold. You are proud of who you are, simple as that. You are passionate about life and its possibilities. You don't hold back. What Bathroom Product Are You? It's about 1/4 right lately, but it's closer to 100% when I am normal/as I prefer to be, which is of course the objective. http://www.elhide.com/solo/index.php?id=P2057 You Were Born into the Metal Element You are an energetic, active person who values ambition. You think success is important. You are very unique and competent. You know how to live a good life, without following anyone else's rules. You have to watch out for anxiety. Sometimes you find it hard to let go and relax. You are stubborn and persistent. You won't give up out of principle, even if it's the right thing to do. What Element Were You Born Into?