Archives: February 2010
Sun Feb 28, 2010
I started this post on the 24th to be sure it was ready the 25th, then got derailed. Except for a substantially identical first paragraph that is now the second paragraph, this is a new version.
Seven years ago, February 25, 2003, at 12:57 AM - missed the 24th by that much - I made my first blog post (actually not the original location, but I replicated the post to my original non-BlogSpot blog and that is the link I can find easily), intentionally of no consequence just to get started. I'd been tempted to blog for several months before that, and could easily have been a "generation" or half-generation before the one I happily fell into. I say happily because I was in such amazing company. Blogging then was also social media before there was social media, and may never be like that again, barring an effective way to "open source" key social media functions across individually controlled sites. But that's a digression.
No, strike that. The next paragraph and beyond to the point where I stopped are still what I had typed. Let this be the aside I was going to insert here then to assure the reader or two that there is some connection between what follows and the above. It's such a big shift, that struck me as non-obvious after I'd banged the keys a while longer. The rest was going to get eliminated either completely or changed to some a modest conclusion that said little, just so I could get it posted on the day of, but I gave up even on that.
I recently watched Lemonade, which I wish I'd seen 2-3 years ago. At least. At that, it's not alien to me, the idea you pursue what you love, what really matters to you. Or even the idea that an adverse time of transition may be the time for it, perhaps life is telling you something. I've just always resisted it. Be practical, the nagging voice says. Figurative voice, that is. I don't have any of those kind. At least not yet. So I never fully bought into it, and more importantly, I've had big trouble even knowing what it is I love that much. Unless I confuse knowing and accepting, with a smattering of competition for the title thrown in.
That was a problem in job hunting, when there remained some laughable iota of a notion I might be employed again. If you can call what I did before "employed." I didn't latch onto That One Thing and exude Passion in it's general - let alone specific - direction. And you know? I've lately realized that maybe I don't love computer-related work. Not like that. Not anymore. Maybe it never was like that.
I think what I was going to say was I have trouble even knowing what I love enough to go for it even if it looks laughably unremunerative, but having pondered recently, it seems to come back to writing. Which makes sense. I managed to turn tech support into a job with an extensive writing component. I've found myself missing blogging. Yet it's hard to get back into as a routine thing, and the exact set of places devoted to it need to be rethought and revised. If I can make writing what I do and practice it that way, who knows from there.
That was where I left off, and that last paragraph was hard to write because I was already coming back from an interruption and not as sure of the flow or where I'd been and was going.
So. I plan to reboot the blogging. Yes, I love it. Yes, I love to write in general. No, it's not an ordinary or clear career path. But this economy - my apologies for having been a leading indicator, feel like I dragged the rest of the world along for the crash - doesn't lend itself to ordinary, traditional, clear or direct. We've seen that there is money in blogging, and no offense, I will also be in it for that.
It won't be easy. As you can see here, I am easy to interrupt to the point where posts get discarded or changed in direction completely. But the kids are getting so much easier to work with, and there are seldom other adults, oddly a bigger distraction, in the house. Otherwise, I am my own biggest distraction. It never helps that I feel guilty about writing because it's not "real work." This is where the part time job may help, keeping me grounded and giving me a "real work" (and exercise!) outlet.
The set of blogs will change. Still not sure precisely how, but the outlines of it are there. I may retire this one after all, for real, but may take content with me elsewhere, if selectively or by revisiting what I said before. In keeping with the above, I will probably make no attempt to maintain a tech blog, per se. Conversely, the foremost thing I am working on is a food blog, a new one more logically named and themed. In an unusual move, I'll probably let the domain of the old food blog expire in May, porting content. Blogblivion will probably remain but change or add a focus. Despite requests to the contrary, Accidental Verbosity will remain retired. I'll probably keep the business blog going and attempt to post there sometimes, and attempt to keep the latest incarnation of CotC via Twitter and digests going. Those won't be a big priority. I never was a full-fledged business blogger, after all, and of CotC I was mainly a manager and superb editor/commentator. It's just that the business blog actually pulls revenue, and there is hope the CotC site can as well. Worst case, the two can be one again. I will attempt to revise and revive the snarky political blog, which also touches culture and economics. There's a place for fun stuff, books, culture, kid-oriented things. Might even make that the kid pictures and antics place. Debating an entirely separate domain for that, though. How thin can you spread... How thin can you spread...
Mostly, and still indeterminate, there will be a personal blog on whatever, the direct successor to this one and much of my marital blogging. I had hoped to announce and even launch more of this on the 25th, but oh well. The main thing...?
I now consider writing to be my job.